A night to remember (Rivertail Only)

[padamay]

Featherdance waited silently in a make shift den she had created while she waited for Rivertail. She would hate it if Rivertail didn't end up showing. She refused to even imagine him doing something like that. She laid down and wraped her tail around herself. It was very cold and she didn't even know what they were doing. If they even were going to met, then why not at Four Trees were it would hide their scents.
Before she had left, she had made sure that Thunderclan was asleep and soundless. She hoped no one would hear Rivertail and her talking.
Featherdance waited for Rivertail to appear. She shivered lightly and wished she was in her den.

[Swimfast]

A pair of eyes glowed in the distance as Rivertail padded up the bank. He spotted a cluster of bracken, and branches, and suddenly Featherdance's scent hit him. He sighed, and blinked a few times. Taking in the beautiful smell, he walked even more slowly. When he was just in front of the den, he took in a long breath. Okay, you're here to talk to her. That's it. I can't let this go too far.

Rivertail ducked into the little den, and he saw Featherdance laying in front of him. He softly purred, "Thanks for coming. Sorry if I kept you waiting, I had to make sure my Clan was asleep before I left." He smiled, and tenderly pressed his head against Featherdance's shoulder, "Now, we're here to talk. About us."

Rivertail laid in front of Featherdance, and murmured, "I think... We both feel something for each other. But..... We can't let it get out of control." He swallowed then added, "But I... Do like you, a lot. And if, it were right for us to be together.... I mean, if we were in the same...." He gazed into Featherdance's beautiful eyes, "I don't know what I'm trying to say..."

[padamay]

Featherdance sighed heavly. "I think what were both trying to say is that we feel something for each, yet we know we can't be twogether because of what binds us to the warrior code." she answered simply. If anything did really happen between them, she hoped Rivertail would stay by her side.
She new that rules were ment to be broken, yet for the cost of you clan?
She shivered and moved a little closer to Rivertail to get warmer. "I want to know how you feel about me?" she asked.

[Swimfast]

Rivertail smiled, and murmured, "I think you already know. I.. I don't really know how to explain it. It's something that I've never felt for another cat. And, I didn't do it on purpose." He looked into Featherdance's eyes, "I guess the first time we talked... Something happened."

Rivertail swallowed and looked at his paws, "Something that we can't let go too far." He blinked, and added, "But.... I want to be with you. Don't get me wrong. It's just that...... I'm afraid, that what happened to my apprentice, Mistpaw.. Is going to happen to us. And I don't want that." He edged closer to Featherdance, and purred softly, "Now it's your turn." His eyes sparkled in the moonlight as he gazed at the lovely she-cat.

[padamay]

Featherdance smiled, but this was not what answer she was looking for. She frowned, and quickly hide it with a shocking smile. "Well..." she started but didn't know what to say. She new Rivertail was handsome, and he was popular amoung the clans. But what was it that she saw in him. She new only part of the answer. "Your handsome, and popular amoung the clans. But to top that, your kind and know whats right for both of us." she mewed truefully.
This what she had hoped Rivertail say to her, but it seemed once again that only a tom was interested in her beauty. She sat up and curled her tail tightly over her paws.

[Swimfast]

Rivertail smiled, and purred, "Thank you, Featherdance." He narrowed his eyes, "Although... I wouldn't say that I'm so popular...." He sighed and continued, "In my opinion.... You're one of the only cats who is honest with me. And, I feel comfortable around you." He looked at the ground and shook his head, "The next one after you would be my apprentice, Mistpaw. But... Now, even we are awkward around each other." Rivertail looked into the she-cat's eyes, "I just serve Riverclan the best I can."

He swallowed and turned his gaze back to the ground, "Although that's becoming more difficult..." He jumped and quickly added, "But it's not because of you! Please, don't think that. Actually, I think you're one of the best things that's ever happened to me. I'm glad that I know you." He sighed, "But.. I don't want to let things go too far. Not because it would be wrong, although that's one of the reasons." He blinked and brushed his tail along Featherdance's side, "I wouldn't want to put you through that. It would cause you more trouble then me. I mean, having half Riverclan kits in Thunderclan.... Would probably make things difficult for you. And that's just not fair." Rivertail twitched his ears in a circle, "It wouldn't be fair to the kits either..."

[padamay]

Featherdances temper boomed. She shoot a quick glance at Rivertail of disbelif and anger. So this was just about what would happen if she had kits. She growled more harshly then she ment too. "I have no want of any kits untill I'm ready to have them. I'm hoping I'll become deputy, but if I had kits I'd have to give it up." she mewed and turned away from Rivertail sharply. This meating was going nowhere. She got to her paws and squeezed through a tight opening and looked back at Rivertail.
"I do not want kits. I thought it was something real between us, but you seem worried that if I had kits...." she mewed but could not finish, she looked sadly at Rivertail. "What if I told you I was having kits, what would we do?"

[Swimfast]

Rivertail looked tenderly into Featherdance's eyes, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for you to think that... I guess I'm just trying to say that, I want to be with you, and I feel something for you... But it wouldn't be right for us to be together."

He swallowed, this wasn't going as steady as he thought it was. His idea was that they would meet, establish that they both had feelings for each other, then understand that they couldn't be together, no matter how much they wanted to, then go back to their own Clans, and continue being friends. But at the instant they started talking, he knew it was not going to be anything near that simple.

Rivertail sighed, "If you did tell me that you were going to have kits.... I would leave Riverclan, and come to be with you. Wherever you decide to go. My family would be more important to me then anything, and if you were having our kits, then I would want nothing more then to be by your side every day and night." He purred softly, and swished his tail across the ground.

[padamay]

Featherdance smiled tenderly at Rivertail. He had a heart and what he just said meant a lot to her. "Rivertail, you have a heart so big, yet you choose to give it to me. What do I say?" she mewed. "I never wanted a mate until I was older, but when I met you at the gathering, the world split apart. It was as if you and I were the only living things in the forest." she mewed dreamly. She loved the felling Rivertail gave her when he was around. She shivered and continued, "You make my day when ever I see you by the River, I have to keep telling myself not to swim over to you." she shyly mewed.
Next she hoped was going to come that part of being told no by Rivertail then they could go on with there lives. "And I want to to so no to this all and I know it the right thing to do, but deep down in my heart, I dearly wish it was yes..." she paused.

[Swimfast]

Rivertail felt his fur prickle, "I want everything to work out between us too... But, it's wrong." He looked sadly into Featherdance's eyes, feeling himself melt in her gaze. "Mistpaw, my apprentice, she had kits with a Thunderclan cat. Nightpaw, you probably know who he is."

Rivertail swallowed and shook his head, "He left Thunderclan, and Mistpaw left Riverclan. And... During the kitting... I was there, and Mistpaw.. Almost didn't make it. And the kits, the kits are.. Not like most other kits." He sighed, "I guess part of their problem is that their so young... But now Mistpaw is going to stay in Riverclan with the kits, and Nightpaw is going back to Thunderclan. And things are just complicated for them."

He twitched his whiskers, "Although I would never leave you, if you wanted to go back to Thunderclan, then I would go with you. I promise. But... I don't know if Silverstar would allow that. And Lightstar...." He blinked, "I just don't want us to have to go through that..."

Rivertail purred, "But I really really like you, Featherdance. And if we can't be together, I will always be a friend to you. If you move on, and foget me... I'll still be there for you. No matter what." He smiled softly, "You're a special cat, and you'll always have a place in my heart." He glanced up at the moon, "We should probably return to our camps soon..."

[padamay]

Featherdance sighed heavly and nooded. She yawned. "I think your right about everything." she mewed. "We'll stay friends, leave behind what happened tonight, and we'll go back to our old lives." she mewed and walked over to Rivertail and flicked her tail lightly across his shoulder. "We made the right choose." she mewed and walked past Rivertail to a bush of garlic. She rubbed against and rubbered some on the ground were they had laid. "We were under a Garlic bush so it will hide your scent." she mewed and walked away fightning every part of her body not to go running to him. She walked and dissappeared into the darkness. "I hope we had the right choose." she whispered to herself. Yet there seemed to be something that she left behind what was it? Her hearted started to beat faster as she drew closer to camp. Her belly seemed like it carried the lightest weight in the world. She shook the thought away and walked into the warriors den.

[Swimfast]

Rivertail felt his fur bristle as Featherdance touched him. He purred softly as she walked away, "Goodbye, my dear." He felt the breeze blow, and found that there was no trace of her lovely scent. He sighed tenderly, and stood, then slowly padded away. His heart throbbed as he thought about Featherdance, and as he closed his eyes and imagined her, it felt like she was right in front of him again. Rivertail opened his eyes, blinked, and walked away.